Twenty-Five

Hello Bloggies,

I do believe that this was the first day of the best summer of my life. If today was any indication of how the rest of the summer will be, it will be amazing! :) I even am a little sunburned on the top of my arms and my nose. Last night I went to a party with a bunch of my friends and we watched Beauty and the Beast. We did it in the winter so it was weird to watch it but it was so much fun. After that all of the girls went back to Lauren's house and we chatted all night long. Well I was up until 4 and then I totally crashed. I think the rest of the girls were up until 6. We woke up at 11:30 and had breakfast and straight after that we went to Dairy Queen. An hour after talking and ice cream all around we ordered slurpies. The promises of working out all summer makes it all okay though! Weasels, gossip, sidewalk chalk, energy drinks, cheesy goldfish, Youtube, boys, and true love are just the normal right? I'm so blessed to have such amazing friends. I really have to get back to studying for finals. I will be so happy once it is all over. Much to come once all the real fun starts.

Love, Chelsea

Twenty-Four

Dear Blog,
This has been a long, long week. The show ended so abruptly and I miss it so much. It feels like when we're doing a production we're in an alternate reality. You get so caught up in the fun that you forget about all the day to day problems. On Tuesday, when I realized that it was over a sort of panic came over me. I have finals. I have homework. I have real life to deal with. It's an overwhelming feeling. My emotions want to go straight to summer and not have any worries and things to do. My mind knows that I have chores to get done, final papers to write and things to do to care of myself. Hopefully it will all finish quickly. I mean I gave up my facebook to get homework done. This better go fast because I'm dying without social interaction! Wish me luck!
~Chelsea

Twenty-Three

Dear Blog,

I love being on stage because I can be whoever I want to be at all. It's so freeing and I know that I don't have a very strong voice and so I would really like to pursue drama. I don't really know if I'm any good but I would like to try doing a play soon. Musical theater is not really my thing though I wish it was.

Tomorrow is the very last day of the show. I know that for most everyone it's not the last day because they have strike party in a two weeks. Unfortunately, I'll be in Tennessee that day. Being in Tennessee is not a bad thing by any means though. It will be lots of fun spending time with Gretchen. At the same time though I keep thinking about how tomorrow will probably be the very last time I'm going to be with some of these kids.

I really started out the show extremely excited. I was ready to do anything they told me. For pete's sake, I've never had a part like this. ALL THE DIRECTORS KNEW MY NAME WITHIN A WEEK OR TWO! I mean what a shock. If it was everything I dreamed it would be, it would be the perfect show. Well then things got a little hard. I struggled with the blocking and the music. I felt left out alot in different social circles. Our costumes weren't what we expected. There were a lot of things that shouldn't have got me down but they did. I made a huge stink about something that wasn't worth the struggle at all. I had gotten one of my dream roles! Yeah it's just a bird girl but it was something that was in reach.

I wish I had spent more time getting to know certain people. Now I started making new friends and having fun with them but on Monday it will all be over. I do believe I will cry my eyes out tomorrow. Rachael and Alise are both moving on and I'm going to miss them so much. I'll also miss this show and the friendships I made. All the fun times we had. Inside jokes that were made. Secrets that we shared. Aaah............... I can't take this much longer. I'm going to bed!
Goodnight, Chelsea

Twenty-Two

Dear Blog,

Week 1 of shows officially accomplished. It was such a long week. The thing is that even though it's really draining and hard work, the weeks that I'm with those kids are some of the best in my life. I don't want it to end!
Last Weeks Schedule:
Friday- Last Friday Rehearsal
Saturday- Last Saturday Rehearsal
Sunday- Finish homework before the long week
Monday- First Dress Rehearsal 4:20-10
Tuesday- Second Dress Rehearsal 4:20- 9:30
Wednesday- Third Dress Rehearsal 4:20- 9:30
Thursday- Two School day shows 7-3
Friday- Opening Night and Cast Party 4:50-12:30
Saturday- 2 Shows and Party! 11:50-12
Sunday- Show and Mothers Day Dinner 11:50-6
Monday- Theater Class 5:30- 7:30, Work 7:50-9:30
Tuesday- Work 2:30-9

I wish I could record my inner monologue sometimes. I want to write out my thoughts but they normally only make sense in my head and get jumbled when I try to write them out. Most of the time I think while I'm doing the dishes or sweeping at work. Today I was thinking about how I feel that sometimes I'm so socially inept. Although I want to be liked and amicable, I can be really shy or downright obnoxious.
Summer is almost here! I can't wait!

Twenty-One

Dear Bloggites, (hehe I love that, I'm a dork!)
It's been a very loooong day. I just finished washing off my makeup and taking the bobby pins out of my hair. I look interesting. hahaha
The show is approaching fast. We open on Friday and I don't feel ready at all. I don't have the dances or the lyrics down. I want to do well but I try so hard and I feel like a total idiot on stage. I dread going out there because I feel like I'm going to do something stupid. Tomorrow I'm spending all afternoon practicing the dances and reading over the lyrics. I can't talk because I have to rest my voice because I can only croak right now. Froglike is my voice. Frog is like voice my.... I'm am tired. This is the last show I'm going to be able to do with Alise and Rachael! Two of my bestest friends ever and I don't even see them that much. It's not like it's the end of the world. It's nice to have a show where I'm actually busy and not feeling worthless. The whole cast is sooooooo busy. I do miss my friends though. I'm carpooling with Rach so I see her but no Alise. It's not cool :(...
Oh well. Hopefully everything will come together. I wish I felt more confident in what I was doing though. I feel like I keep waiting for somebody to go, "Hey what's that girl doing in that part!!! Get her off the stage! Chelsea, you are doing everything wrong!" I get confused when people tell me I'm doing well.... aaaah goodness. It's hard to go from townsperson after townsperson to a supporting role. um... well I guess it shouldn't be but I'm struggling.
Last rehearsal tomorrow!!! AAAAH!!! Hopefully with practicing tomorrow afternoon I can feel less stressed at rehearsal. I'm listening to Colbie Caillat right now :D It makes me feel more relaxed.
Goodnight, Chelsea

Twenty

Dear Blog,
I haven't written in awhile since I've been so stressed and tired but I really should have. When I write, I feel much better about everything.

Yesterday I had so many good intentions of going to bed early. Well, that really didn't happen. My mom had a rough day and I ended up just staying late talking to her. We had a really good talk and I actually gave her some advice for once. lol! I didn't end up getting any homework done last night. Oh well. I got some done today. Some haha.... a little. mmm Oh yeah I had brownies last night.

Please send a prayer for our show if you can. I'm really hoping that it can come together tonight! I'll write more later! I have to curl my hair!

Nineteen

So I definitely have typical girl syndrome. I've been watching the office for the last two weeks and I'm on the third season. The show is absolutely hysterical and delightful. The characters and the settings, although elevated versions of reality, they kind of hit home with people and circumstances that I've seen before in real life. My favorite characters are Jim and Pam of course. I'm in love with Jim Halpert! He's soooooo perfect and amazing and Pam is a lucky lady. Kelly makes me laugh sooo hard. Poor Ryan, she's totally obsessed with him. Angela is so awkward and funny. Dwight's Speech was my favorite episode so far. Maybe not my favorite but I laughed the hardest. :)

The long week of rehearsals, dress rehearsals and shows starts today. I'm extremely not looking forward to it. Well that's not true. I can't wait! The week of doom as I like to call it. It's tons of fun and like a week-long party. The problem is that I get way behind in homework and get stressed beyond reason. I also don't feel ready at all. For some reason I struggle with getting the dances and choreography down and I just feel stupid. Adleast I know the music. Too bad I don't have any voice right now. Hopefully it will come back and not keep giving me grief.