Twenty-One

Dear Bloggites, (hehe I love that, I'm a dork!)
It's been a very loooong day. I just finished washing off my makeup and taking the bobby pins out of my hair. I look interesting. hahaha
The show is approaching fast. We open on Friday and I don't feel ready at all. I don't have the dances or the lyrics down. I want to do well but I try so hard and I feel like a total idiot on stage. I dread going out there because I feel like I'm going to do something stupid. Tomorrow I'm spending all afternoon practicing the dances and reading over the lyrics. I can't talk because I have to rest my voice because I can only croak right now. Froglike is my voice. Frog is like voice my.... I'm am tired. This is the last show I'm going to be able to do with Alise and Rachael! Two of my bestest friends ever and I don't even see them that much. It's not like it's the end of the world. It's nice to have a show where I'm actually busy and not feeling worthless. The whole cast is sooooooo busy. I do miss my friends though. I'm carpooling with Rach so I see her but no Alise. It's not cool :(...
Oh well. Hopefully everything will come together. I wish I felt more confident in what I was doing though. I feel like I keep waiting for somebody to go, "Hey what's that girl doing in that part!!! Get her off the stage! Chelsea, you are doing everything wrong!" I get confused when people tell me I'm doing well.... aaaah goodness. It's hard to go from townsperson after townsperson to a supporting role. um... well I guess it shouldn't be but I'm struggling.
Last rehearsal tomorrow!!! AAAAH!!! Hopefully with practicing tomorrow afternoon I can feel less stressed at rehearsal. I'm listening to Colbie Caillat right now :D It makes me feel more relaxed.
Goodnight, Chelsea